
Am I the only one out there that will extend everyone else in the world a boatload of grace and yet, give myself none?
Sometimes I ache inside because of the way I struggle with myself. A dear friend of mine offered me this wonderful idea. He said, “say to yourself… ‘the battle is over, I am at peace with myself…’” Isn’t it incredible that we can have the peace of GOD, the peace of HIS nearness and still NOT OFFER OURSELVES GRACE! If you can identify with me on this, don’t feel badly. We are in good company. I write this today to say that even Apostles had bad days. And yet, Jesus showed them grace. Look at the sons of thunder… Look at Peter and his “get thee behind me Satan” rebuke. Everyone has bad days. Everyone misses the mark. This is NOT permission to sin, it’s permission to forgive. Please hear me when I say this. I am not speaking as if I have attained anything in this, I am sharing from a raw heart of ache that longs for more grace to be given to me. Not by God, I have immeasurable grace from Him, but from Dustin. Isn’t that crazy? What is the battle over anyways? Perfection in men’s eyes. That I appear perfected? Well, today I quit. I don’t quit on Holy Spirit’s ever transforming power that is changing me daily from glory to glory. That is the Treasure hidden inside these earthen vessels. I am quitting the show. I am quitting the facade. And what I find is funny is that I really never needed it anyway. So, if this speaks to you as well. I challenge you, in the light of the Love that the LORD has poured out on us, quit the “show” and “own your ugly.” I am so grateful and thankful and blessed that in this ugly season, God never changes and when I cannot carry all the loads of the world, His grace shows up through you guys, our Tribe, our church, our mentors and more.
God’s love is so much bigger, so much deeper, so much more beautiful than I ever knew. And I am blown away that I would have never known this depth without this stretching. So grateful! Grateful for His Love! Thank you for being the hands, feet and face of His love. Thank you for being the demonstration of His Love. And if you are reading this and you are where I am, I challenge you to “quit on perfect” and fall into the arms of His Love. It’s only in His grace and Love that we can be perfected in the first place. Lord, thank you for this timeout in life for love revelation! AMEN!